Letting Go Of Your "Life Stuff" or "Junk In Your Trunk"

Just how much extra junk do you have in your "life" trunk? I am not talking about those extra pounds you are always dieting to get rid of either! I am talking about the crap that we see as important in our life, that really is not! The stuff that is always holding us back and making us feel miserable or less than worthwhile. My junk causes me more stress and anxiety it seems, how about you?

We all have junk... Yes I have been learning a hard lesson that some of this junk of mine needs to go, so the true woman in me can shine. The woman that God made to glorify Him and not myself or worldly possessions.

Here is a list of some Junk In The Trunk items for anybody to pray about and begin to work on...... one at a time:

• Need to be perfect
• Fear and worry
• Comparing myself to others
• Anxiety and stress
• Trying to do it all
• Multitasking and getting nothing done
• Not saying No!
• Saving everything "just in case I might need it"
• Actual possessions that are just clutter
• Lack of real organization in your home
• Not Letting others be right (spouse)
• Not Letting others help you
• Constant thoughts of sadness since death of a loved one (for me my mom just passed away in Feb 2014)

There are many more I am sure, but I think you are catching my drift.

Below is a wonderful list from writer / speaker Brene Brown, if you have not heard her TED talks or read any of her books I strongly encourage looking her up.

This speaks mountains to me, I pray it will touch you today also.

Be blessed today!

Next time let's talk about that list and how we can work thru it, one day at a time.

 

 

 

The Birds Are Singing Again......I Am Choosing Joy!

Choose your Joy! Let the birds of your heart sing again.........

I have not posted here for some months now. My mental disposition has just not been to that point in my healing process yet. I do firmly believe that writing/blogging about my depression/PTSD may help other women who deal daily with this disease or condition. I have been in such a dark and deep place for months now, simply functioning on a small spark with no flame. My joy in life has dissipated until recently when I just decided to try and pick my self up off the floor(literally), my family deserves more than this....they deserve the real me, the woman full of joy, love and life. A woman of God that does not give up so easy .....

For those of you that don't know me, my mother recently passed away in Febuary with lung cancer. My mother, my mentor, my hero, my best friend!

It all happened so fast that I really had no time to think nor grieve or prepare until boom she was gone.

I still hold feelings deep internally that I can't reach past to move on. I wake up every day thinking about my poor mother and how she suffered til the end. How I wish I could have spent more time with her. What did I do wrong, I am a nurse......a healer....I failed!

Just when I thought I was moving forward in healing and the grief I experienced when my dad died in 2009, now I am faced with the lose of both of my heros in life. (I' m not bitter...nah)

Both of them have been taken away by the dreaded disease of cancer. Cancer sucks is all I can say, it seems to steal your joy away completely.

I miss my mom so much now it hurts my soul. I wake up in the morning thinking about her and go to sleep thinking about her. Little things that happen now in our life I want to call and tell her, but she is not there to answer the phone....I still have her numbers in my cell phone, I can't bring myself to erase them. I have even saved the last voicemail she left me, so I can just hear her voice.

Letting go of things has always been a problem for me, but I am working hard to let go of some of my moms material possessions that really don't make sense for us to clutter our house with. She would have wanted me to donate her clothes to a worthy cause and I am still just hanging on to them. I did let go and did not go back to the house for even more "stuff", my younger brother was a trooper and took care of the rest of the mess. I would have just hauled more junk back here to my house when I am beginning to hoard stuff already. I still cry daily over it though....crazy huh?

Homeschool moms seem to hoard tons of "stuff" as it is..lol , I am trying my best to avoid a tv episode of "Hoarders buried alive" one day.

Come with me on my journey back to a better place, each week I hope to post more about my journey one day at a time as the birds begin to sing again.